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Not ready for him to fly! Blessings bountiful this Saturday! by eimi at 3/7/2009 6:53:41 PM As you know I am a mother of 18 yr old and 13 yr old sons. I was up tell three am waiting for my son to return with the car. He is getting very serious with a girl and they are talking marriage....I want to cry. I married young and DO NOT want my sons to make that mistake. I don't like the girl and I am trying so hard to like her but she leads him away from following the values I instilled in him since he was a boy. Sadly I faced that he is heading out of the nest and mama isn't ready. He is my best buddy. I was blessed that My oldest and I have been best friends even as I have been a mother to him...of course being a mom came before being a friend. I moved out at 15 and was married at 17 1/2 so who am I to expect him to stay tell he is 30? It is breaking my heart but I have to let him fly and pray that I made him strong enough to handle if he falls. I just pray God makes me strong enough. After being up tell 4 am and crying myself to sleep I had to be up by 8 am. My friends from church came over and were so amazing. They made me lunch and as embarassed as I am to admit it...they cleaned my house. My back has been bad but is getting better. They suprised me with a new bed for my back. I couldn't believe it. It is amazingly comfortable. I was so shocked but if you knew how much they love me it would be awful of me to not accept their kindness. I was treated like a queen and very aware that I am deeply blessed. My youngest helped out and they spoiled him a bunch. Since he put up with the cackling of church women pinching cheeks I let him go to the movies tonight with his older brother who was working today but stopped in to help with the bed. I feel ten thousand times better, my apartment feels brand new and all I can think is Thank You God for loving me. My cat and dog are snuggled next to each other at my feet and it is nice and quiet. What ever is ahead for me and the boys I am sure God has me in the palm of his hand. All my friends on DH thanks for your kindness and for those who share a sense of humor thanks for making me laugh. To top off this amazing day...I have a new friend and I find him intriguing. Women as Red Green says if your man isn't handsome...he better be handy. God Bless, Eimilee

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foxy_woman_49 online now!	3/7/2009 8:22:13 PM I feel for ya...when they are old enough to fly, they do and there is nothing much we can do about it. It's very hard to let go and to watch them make mistakes. However, we too went and made our mistakes and thats how we learn. My older kids...I never tell them how to live etc...
foxy_woman_49 online now!	3/7/2009 8:22:23 PM For it is their lives as when I left home it was my life.Share in their joys and accomplishments and when they need a ear you'll be there always. We cant stop them and they dont get somethings until the day they too have a baby. It is then that we Mom's and Dad's suddenly are very much appreciated cause they learn what it is too really love Hang in there..let go as hard as it is..I cried many of nights I'm sure you will as well. Maybe most of us do. Be proud of them when they succeed above all love them no matter
flying550	3/8/2009 10:07:57 AM You described that 'Rite of a Mother's passage' very well. My son is 22 now. I still miss him terribly. He's not perfect but he is a good man and with you for a Mom I've no doubt your sons will be good men, too. I'm so glad you allowed your church family to take care of you - most of us love the feeling we get when we take care of others but it's hard to let ourselves be on the other end. Take care!
skrypt01	3/8/2009 5:26:28 PM i hope you find happiness wherever you decide to go or do.sincerely your new friend wildman