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Back to work. March 12th...back in time by eimi at 3/12/2009 10:02:59 PM Well finally after two weeks I was able to get back to work. I was in pain but they allowed me to do a part time shift for now. I did five hours and it was very productive. I was very surprised how many people came up happy to see me. My mid back is killing me but hopefully it will all be resolved in the next few weeks. I am happy I can feel my hands and legs fine. I can't sleep lately. I felt weird today not sad but something I couldn't put my finger on. My ex came to mind a bit more then I liked. Didn't realize tell about 5 minutes ago...today is the 12th. We started dating on March 12th of 89 and our daughter Allison was due to be born on that day in 1993 but died in the womb in my fifth month. We married St.Pats day of 1990 and divorced 16 yrs later. He had his faults and I wouldn't go back for all the money on earth yet I miss his humor. He was the funniest man I ever knew. I miss being in love. Not with him but just that feeling of having someone to share life with. The past is behind me and I am moving forward. I worked, it was beautiful outside today, my sons are safe and amazing. I don't have to go to work tell noon tomorrow so easy breezy right. I believe I know where love is in my life but I am looking for it. It is already here in my life if I could be still long enough. I am finding DH to be nice to make friends and the forums are a ok release but I don't think love is here. I don't think love is where you have to look it just is, it finds us. Yet what do I know right. Peace and Love... Em