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Life, Love and What The Hell by brockr23 at 5/2/2009 9:13:10 AM I wrote this a while ago, just as I was going through some serious shit in life. Of late, I have seen that many friends are going through some serious shit as well. Here's to sharing. Such is life that you fall in love, lose love, become damaged and jaded. Everyone has been here, unless of course you live in fairy tale land with Prince Charming and a Fairy Godmother; which I can assure you, you do not. People are inherently obsessed with finding and holding on to love, I am no different in this sense. What I wonder is, does it ever happen? So far, I have no such success story. It has to say something about life as you live it, when what you find in love is damaging, confidence shattering, go-f**k-yourself insanity. I don't believe I have ever asked the universe for screwed up, insane, Magnum P.I., un-trusting, neurotic psychopaths to fall in "love" with me. Yet, I have a stable of just such exes. I find it disconcerting that this is the story of my life. If you had asked me at 16 where I would be when I hit the big 30, I can assure you my answer was not, damaged, broken and worn out. As it stands however and as Murphy's Law would have it, here I sit. In front of a wide-screen monitor typing with only four fingers, this loser blog about how painful and crappy my love life has been. As if it makes any difference in the price of tea in China. Just once, it would be so nice to find an intellect, sense of humor, comfort and love that really wanted me for me and not my paycheck. Just once, the opportunity to be Prince Charming for a girl that really wants it would mean so much. A time to share thoughts, moments free of pressure, of pretense, just once. What the hell, here's hoping for a Disney movie to find me.

Comments
ilovehandbags	5/2/2009 10:05:50 AM I want to find my prince charming..but i keep meeting shrek.
savet09	5/2/2009 10:08:37 AM I do believe we're all looking for the same thing, we just happen to look for it in the wrong places. And or we aren't opening our eyes to it. Half the time I believe it's right in front of our damn faces, but both parties choose to ignore it. I don't know why. Maybe it's easier to find this elusive love then we all think and thus we make it more difficult than it actually is to find. Who knows. I guess it's like anything else in life, some have it easier than others.
savet09	5/2/2009 10:44:38 AM Hey, but Shrek was lovely and was even better than the Prince (maybe not in looks, but I rest my case, it's not all about the looks).
brockr23	5/2/2009 11:19:58 AM You do realize I wrote this a very long time ago. I am doing much better these days. Thanks.
annigma3	5/2/2009 11:25:14 AM Nevermind then. Nice story, bro
savet09	5/2/2009 11:47:12 AM Yes...I realize...afterall you DID state it as so at the beginning. I was just commenting...
sweetiepieslove	5/2/2009 1:13:46 PM Hey Hey, I like Shrek he's an awesome fella! On a serious note, I keep finding 'Lucifer'it seems Don't these men realize I'm an and should be treated as such?
savet09	5/2/2009 9:58:13 PM Lucifer? *insert scary face* I keep getting those that require FREE sessions of my own psychiatric expertise and/or they're a bunch of drunks. I'll trade ya' - it might be a good change of scenery for us both.