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just ranting by foxydancer at 3/6/2010 7:13:02 PM I know I dont have much to deal with compared to others... But things still get overwhelming. My brother is visiting on leave, so i cancelled plans with my sister (not his sis) to chill with him. then he cancled on me. thanks bro I have like a week and a half left of work, I am already missing my old ppl. Im not going to have any money (i dont pay bills but it still sucks to be 100% broke) I dont have a car. Dont have a phone now My dad thinks im going to drop out of school or fail I quit work to save my a** in school and he still treats me like shit. He is mad at me for quitting. My mother explodes and starts yelling at me when i dont even say anything wrong or change my tone of voice. I think shes bi polar I need add meds and to see a shrink to get them but they dont care and wont help me i had a seriously medical injury a short time ago and need to make a follow up app but so far they dont give a shit to help me with that either i dont know how to find out what drs are covered by my insurace I just dont know what to do anymore. I feel depressed and alone and overwhelmed. ::crying I need my family to support me and love me and be there emotionaly. All they do is criticize and yell at me.

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foxydancer	3/6/2010 7:16:17 PM to make matters worse I have no coping mechanism, just... bad things I dont do anymore. so this sucks
foxydancer	3/7/2010 2:57:47 AM did too many bad things tonight... feel like death
anywhereusa	3/7/2010 7:47:38 AM Hang in there hon!!! Call 211 and ask if there is anywhere you can go for free counseling. It is possible there is a non profit organization that might be able to help you!!!!
charligirl34	3/8/2010 7:41:35 AM Sweetheart, please don't take this wrong, cuz I really don't mean this in a mean way. But thsi is called growing up. That's what this is all about. I agree with any, call 211 and find free counseling. Look on the back of your insurance card and call the number listed there to find out what doctors you can go to. This kind of things is your responsibility now, not your parents'. If you want a car and a phone, you need to work to pay for it. I understand you're in school, and that makes it difficult, but it can be done. Trust me... I was a single mom with a 2 year old and a 2 month old when I went back to school. I took 21 credit hours per semester, and I worked full time. I lived alone with my 2 kids. You can do it, you just have to get out there and get it done babe. Again, I truly don't mean any of this to sound like I'm coming down on you, it's just the way things are babe.
msugly2u	3/8/2010 9:24:05 AM I agree with the ladies above. Your insurance provider will have a website and that will have a provider search/directory to look for any type of MD that you need--whether for general health care needs (i.e. a PCP--which is a fam. med. MD, internist (they only treat people like 21 and up..i.e. those they classify as adults), OB-GYN, or even a pediatrician--as some peds treat people up to the age of 21. And you can find a specialist on your insurance's website..i.e. a psychiatrist. Best of luck and hang in there, love.