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♠My cheesy take on something I realized today♠
by wutupfoo at 12/18/2010 7:55:12 PM
*Don't Call Me Peanut - Bayside*
Life is f**kin' funny sometimes, you know? I have spent some time getting to know new people. Which has been for the most part, great. Sure there are those exceptions, however I have been rather enjoying myself in talking with people, that unfortunately, I may never meet in person due to distances between us, or different lifestyle choices. It is unfortunate, but at the same time, while getting to know other people, I am getting to know myself. I re-evaluate who I used to be, who I am now, and who I want to be.
*Let Me Out - Future Leaders of the World*
4 years ago, I was an entirely different person. I had just gotten out of a long relationship with my first true love. We dated for 2 years and went through a lot together. I went from knowing absolutely nothing about the girl, to knowing her better than I knew myself. Life, I thought, was something that I could plan, and act on accordingly. She ended up pregnant, I'm not going to waste your time, nor mine by saying that it "just happened". We had planned on it. I was working at Weyerhaeuser, making REALLY good money. She iddn't have to work, and I was paying all the bills on my own, with plenty of money left over. I always wanted to be a young dad. So she quit taking her birth control. A couple months later, we found out she was pregnant. Life changed so drastically. She became a completely different person. I figured it was due to the hormones. Life wasn't as pleasant as it was beforehand. We fought, we cried, we made up, we moved on. One day, I woke up to blood all over the sheets. I rushed her to the hospital, where we found out, she had miscarried. Our relationship couldn't survive that. I was so impacted
*Send the Pain Below - Chevelle*
by her miscarriage, and our break up, that I quit being the friendly person I once was. I started keeping people from getting close to me by being rude. I just couldn't deal with being hurt again, really emo, I know... After a while, I realized I was miserable. People didn't like me, and I didn't like who I had become. I started going back to who I originally was. The fun-loving, positive, upbeat and optimistic person I was. That's when things changed again. People started likeing me all over again... Big shock, I know.
Looking back at these memories, I realized something. Life truly is, what you make of it. Sure, we are all going to deal with being hurt, it's a part of life. I hear people talk on these forums all the time, about how shitty the opposite sex is. To be real honest, it pisses me off. Pain, and turmoil
*Carolina Drama - Raconteurs*
is a regular occurence in everyday life. Shit happens, that is why we were designed to be so resilient. We live, we love, we make mistakes, and hopefully we learn from them. Now I am realizing evn more so than ever, that the choices you make everyday, impact the rest of your life. Tomorrow, I expect I will meet new people. I could make the choice to be an a**hole to them, to keep them away. But the person I decide to put off, could be the next person I love intimately. They could end up being a next door neighbor a few years down the road. They could end up being the person I would need to call on for help one day. They will remember how I treated them, which could have either been well, or horrible. From there, they would make their decision.
Now that I've talked about the past and present me, I will talk about the future me.
One day, I want to be well known for doing something amazing for someone. I want my name to be synonymous with friendly, or helpful. One day, I want to be a father. And I want to
*Bonzo Goes To Brittburg - The Ramones*
instill this knowledge into them. People talk about how horrible the world is these days. They don't realize that they do have the power to change the world. All they have to do, is start locally. Start by acting out how it is that you want to be treated. Nobody wants to be treated like shit. Nobody wants to be made fun of, or ridiculed. Teach those that look up to you, how to respect other people, and watch how quickly it moves on down the line.
*The Suffering - Coheed and Cambria*
I know it sounds awful preachy, and exceptionally cheesy. But love those around you, and you'll be surprised the impact it has on your own life. People call it karma, I call it powerful.
F**k that word.
-Christoph
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