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onlytruth
Saint Paul, MN
age: 33
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If you remember this post I placed up last week.Ill explaine something.
(I ended one like that but it was not for a stupid reason in my eyes.
I was with someone who I cared for very much so.but she was from the west coast and the life she knew was out there.She moved to a Saint Paul with me and was so scared to leave she would just lock herself up in our place.(all these assholes here would hit on her and not leave her alone when she would walk down the street, even if she told them she was with someone they would continue to bug her and follow her)She had grown kids on the west coast and she missed them so much.( I cannot count how many fights I was in defending her)
After listening to her life back there and how she missed it so deep , I knew I had to let her go....I could not stand to see that spark in her fade more and more everyday.This place was pulling the life out of her.
I broke it off with her even though I loved her with all my heart.I could not go out to the west coast with her due to the fact my kids are in Chicago and Im still dealing with setting up seeing my kids.my court hearings are here and already set.
The problem with this breaking it off was , she would not leave if she knew I loved her so I had to become an asshole for awhile to get her to want to go back.
I took her to the airport and hugged her and kissed her for the last time.
I talk to her on the phone almost everyday now.She now knows why i was an ass but she understands why.
On a brighter note....She is so full of life now.She is back to her old self and is happy again.We both miss eachother but we will be friends till our final breath.
So you can say Im an asshole or stupid.But I know in my heart I made the right choice.She could not have a real life here and we both knew it.
You think looking for someone is hard??Try finding someone and haveing to walk away.
Chris)
I have been dealing with this for awhile now and I finaly got so sick of loseing all good things in my life and standing by saying "What can I do?".
To hell with that SHIT!!!!!!!!I just put my noctice in at work.As of Sept15th I am on the road driving 1,800 miles to get to Tamara.
Good guys finish last my ass!!We only finish last if we let others choose our future for us.
I love this woman with all my heart and Ill be damned if Im going to let her go that easy.Im driving the whole way.If my car breaks down , Ill walk it.One way or another I will make it there.
Just wanted to let you all know , romance and true love are not dead.you just have to kick them in the head every now and then.
Chris
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| 7/14/2007 11:39:37 AM |
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melbie7769
Grand Junction, CO
age: 30 online now!
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That is AWESOME GOOD LUCK AND DAMN YOU FOR MAKING ME CRY OVER THIS THREAD!!!!
Seriously you are truly awesome and i hope the best for the two of ya's!!!!!
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| 7/14/2007 11:45:17 AM |
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onlytruth
Saint Paul, MN
age: 33
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Thx melbie , I have never gone this far for anything.
I think if more people would just step up and get over the fear they might find what they are looking for.
I am sick of knowing I have a good woman there but Im going to stay in a place I hate and work in a place I hate and call that a life.PISS ON THAT!!!!
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| 7/14/2007 11:54:00 AM |
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melbie7769
Grand Junction, CO
age: 30 online now!
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I totally agree with you!!! That is why i wanna move from here!!!!! I will not settle for nothing anymore I will get what i want if no then it wasn't meant to be!!!!!!!
Have a question for ya now when a man does it its romantic and great but if a women does it well people say its clingy and psycho why is that?!?!?!!
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| 7/14/2007 11:58:28 AM |
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onlytruth
Saint Paul, MN
age: 33
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Becuase poeple are 10% helpful and 90% stupid.
Never listen to other people like that.They are just venting on someone else to keep the eyes off them.
Follow your heart , not other people.
I have poeple telling me what Im doing is stupid but as I told them.
I was nice and polite...I told them "STFU and stay out of my buisness".
Sometimes you have to draw a line.Listen to them and youll never go anywhere with your life.
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| 7/14/2007 12:02:36 PM |
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sb1229
Cleveland, OH
age: 42 online now!
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Don't know ya chris, but may all the best come to you. By your story, you certainly deserve it and then some!!
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| 7/14/2007 12:05:38 PM |
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onlytruth
Saint Paul, MN
age: 33
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Thank you sb.
I pot alot on here.Check a few of them.
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| 7/14/2007 12:09:43 PM |
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libra75
Lowell, AR
age: 32
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You got heart,man! I respect that....
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| 7/14/2007 12:19:45 PM |
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raghav1080
Dublin, OH
age: 27
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We are always here to cheer for you Onlytruth..
Tell her how much you love her, hold her hand , hug her and look into her eyes and say it. "I missed you honey, I love you soo much and I dont want to lose you"
good luck
Raghav..
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| 7/14/2007 12:39:59 PM |
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onlytruth
Saint Paul, MN
age: 33
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Brother I am going to sweep her off her feet.
She has no idea what shes about to get.I plan on holding her for at least a week without letting go.
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| 7/14/2007 12:42:49 PM |
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sweetangel83
Ashtabula, OH
age: 24
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Good luck sweetie...never look back go on and be soo damn happy that the day that you die, you die but with a smile on your face. And don't forget to let us know how well is going on with you.
Best wishes...
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| 7/14/2007 12:43:51 PM |
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onlytruth
Saint Paul, MN
age: 33
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Sweet , I will be keeping you all updated for sure.
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| 7/14/2007 12:44:53 PM |
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sweetangel83
Ashtabula, OH
age: 24
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I will appreciate that 
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| 7/14/2007 1:25:52 PM |
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sumbeach063
Columbia, SC
age: 44
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HELL YA CHRIS!!!!!GLAD YOU LISTEN TO ME............You can't not just sit by and let life pass you by.... WE have but only this life, This life...If ask by God Debra if I give you more yrs to live, and make you look younger then you all ready do. What would be your answer
my child........You know people Id say lord thank you for giving me that choice, but I've live my life here on earth to my best ability and I wouldn't change a thing....
I have learned from my many, many mistakes, and you have forgiven all of them...So thats my answer to you my lord.
So this is your time Chris and God has given you that choice, and you have answer him...
Hugs Debra...........
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| 7/14/2007 1:30:37 PM |
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loverboy2007
Edinburg, PA
age: 32
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This reminded me of a really lame song I heard years ago...it was uhmmm... “I’m gonna be (500 miles)—by The Proclaimers...
It went something like this...
“I will walk 500 miles and I would walk 500 more to be the man who walk a thousand miles just to fall down at your door...
Maybe that song isn’t so lame any more......
NOPE STILL LAME! LOL ...but what you’er doing is cool, and ballzy! You only live once brother, God speed!
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