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It's hard to say goodbye by susansheart839 at 2/17/2013 8:54:12 AM I was always happy to see her because she brightened any room she entered. Her laugh was contagious and she could cut you down in 3.2 seconds if she didn't like you. Two weeks ago, I held her hand, kissed her forehead, told her to join her grandmother in eternal peace because we would all look after her 13 year old daughter. This woman I had known for 11 years was a shell of herself, laying in the bed looking like she was 90 when in reality, she was only 39. Cancer didn't take her. She didn't have a heart attack. She drank herself to death, plain and simple. There will be a memorial at her mom's home next Saturday, her ashes in a white angel container. We won't have to worry for the first time in a long time about her coming into the room drunk and disorderly, cursing out complete strangers because the alcohol had taken over her once brilliant mind. Such a waste of a beautiful life, all for alcohol. God bless you, Cariann, I will and do miss you every single day...

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adagio888	2/17/2013 9:49:43 AM Good morning, susan! All I can say is that Cariann was blessed to have a friend like you in her life who loved her in spite of her illness. I am sorry about your loss and God bless the child she left behind.
karmic_diva	2/17/2013 10:23:53 AM I lost a niece to alcohol and many friends. it's devastating to watch a person die from alcoholism but it happens. sorry for your loss.
nothingchanged	2/17/2013 10:49:32 AM Sorry for your loss keep you in my prayers.
webzie	2/17/2013 11:12:12 AM So sad that people cannot realize that alcohol has ahold of them. A man close to me is being controlled by cocaine, and won't admit. God Bless you, so sorry for the loss
susansheart839	2/17/2013 11:22:48 AM Thank you! This was Cariann 3 years ago:
justapal65	2/17/2013 11:38:11 AM Sorry to here that.Pretty girl. Best wishes to you all.
waxfm	2/17/2013 12:23:01 PM This is for the sisters who ain't here.....
elvissongs	2/17/2013 1:24:43 PM Sorry to hear that Susan- old saying said around the table of recovery meetings I attend when we hear that is " but for the Grace of God go I". When we find out a member died like that we always hold hands and pray for it could have easily been one of us or me
dawgpaws	2/17/2013 1:51:45 PM I am sorry for your loss. As Harry says, "there but for the grace of God go I." We lose all too many men and women who the Program cannot reach in time.
sorpstar	2/17/2013 5:06:48 PM Sorry to hear this i grew up with a brother and sister who`s mom died that way..she drunk in size so quickly and my mom for awhile kept her eyes on them as we grew up...then father just moved but i believe he caused her miseries...be there for her kids...they need someone to look up to...someone that took the right path..
susansheart839	2/19/2013 7:20:03 AM This Saturday is the memorial. Her mom and daughter will be spending Friday night with me because of all the NY family being at her house. No one is supposed to talk about her lack of sobriety because her mom wants only happy memories expressed. ok.....I will go straight after work Saturday, with a hevy heart. <3
shellfishguy	2/20/2013 10:25:03 AM My heart goes out to you Susan - virtually the same situation became the catalyst for my quitting 17 years ago. Went to Seattle to bury my mother. Categorically KNOW that had I not turned the corner, I would not be here today.