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A conversation on Dreams and Abnormalities by maleagant at 2/1/2014 11:28:31 PM - Seraph: xD Well...can you explain what exactly it is that's making you anxious? - Mal: Don't know, sometimes I just get a rush of the energy from anxiety, I just woke up, really weird and disturbing dream about some Vampire lover. Not the dream that does it though it's the messages in the undertones of events. But I couldn't tell you why, suffice it to say I couldn't go back to sleep. - Seraph: Tell me about the dream. - Mal: Not much to tell really. And I'm not sure how to explain my dreams as they are not synchronicity, and do not follow any pattern I could explain. - Mal: There a mix of many concepts and experiences rolled into a bundle of reality that's about as real as me sitting here typing to you as long as it lasts. - Seraph: My dreams are very real. - Mal: I say Vampire lover because she was in a sense, but also wasn't just out of reach, and they always end in questions, was also looking for something.. important, lots of uncontrolled stupid actions in it I personally would never do if in that situation. I'm basically riding in another consciousness, while experiencing many of the issues experienced in this reality while smack in the middle of a totally different one. - Mal: If I assert control over the others consciousness and reality it fragments - Mal: and I get sucked out slowly and sometimes painfully before I wake up. - Mal: it seems to me whatever versions of myself exist in other areas and dimensions they all have simile issues, some with many more opportunities, but less in the way of control. Others with lots of control and no opportunities, others stuck in limbo unable to do either, and others constantly at war with everything around them. - Seraph: That all sounds kinda crazy. - Mal: The frustrating part about being Chaos is that you are such. Constantly in motion, constantly changing, never the same, never stopping, never stable, always in motion. - Seraph: It must make dreams disturbing. - Mal: It makes them sad. All the power in the Universe and existence, and you can't willfully use it. You can't willfully effect change, You can't willfully do anything really which involves the bigger picture. Only subtle things, so you learn to effect the subtle which eventually effects the larger indirectly to achieve wants and goals. - Mal: people don;t understand that to change the smallest thing in their life millions of other variables must be effected. Many of the quite random only occurring once other actions take place. You can prepare for everything, but something will always be left open and vulnerable. - Mal: I don;t like the physical. Feels more like a prison then anything else, and really, it is. - Mal: An aspects weakness is always it'self. - Seraph: But it is necessary to exist in it for now. - Mal: I will always Exist. - Mal: that's not a choice I have. - Mal: Immortality whether physical or otherwise is both a curse and gift. - Mal: All things exist indefinitely, their state of existence is chosen by the owner. Or entity if it's a being. - Mal: If you believe in nothing, you will be nothing, until you realize you are still something, even if that something is nothing. If that makes any sense at all. - Seraph: That's true I suppose. - Mal: On my dream though the Vampire chick was looking for a mate, someone worthy of such. But also restricted and blinded by her own status and her parents. (Royal) is not the word you would use but signifies the meaning. She could find the one she sought easily enough, if she would simply open her eyes. - Mal: On what I was looking for, well I don;t remember, probably the same thing we all look for, which always remains out of reach. - Mal: On the vampire chick, this is a metaphor not a literal, though the gift of immortality accompanies such an offer as well, Physical, immortality for the one she chooses. - Mal: There are many choices here, many paths, many mistakes, and many truths which are obvious and apparent. To which she remains blind too the entire time. - Mal: She is a representation of the human species in many ways. - Mal: even though her race signifies A hybrid, or Alien (not akin) species to humans. - Mal: My dreams are information - Mal: Not dreams, if that makes sense - Seraph: It does. - Mal: The metaphysical is viewed as such, Many who are thought insane see it clearly, because the laws which bind it are the opposite of those which bind the physical. Generally humans are driven insane if their.. Cup overfloweth... So to speak. When you glimpse a swirling tide of realities, where time is not a variable and all things exist, and do not exist simultaneously, and your mind comprehends such there are only 2 outcomes. - Mal: Slow painful Death, Or clarity. - Mal: For most physical species at any rate - Mal: Basically it overloads your brain - Mal: It's not evolved enough to process and comprehend that much sensory input - Mal: it's like overloading a computer hard drive and Cpu with so much data until it melts - Seraph: Which causes the crash. - Mal: Humans who generally survive and are broken but remain generally intact, or they die. - Mal: broken meaning by human standards - Mal: Insane - Mal: etc - Seraph: Hah. Yeah. - Mal: Schizo is one of my favorite abnormalities in humans, as this inherent connection or partial connection physically evolved allows them to process such without harm in many ways, but most of the time this ability is given to those not in positions or not having the intelligence or willpower to control such. - Mal: So it eventually drives them insane as well, partially due to the way other humans treat them or what they hear and see. - Mal: If you see it, and it sees you, if you can touch it, and it can touch you, it's real. Period. - Mal: If it speaks, and it's words are intelligent and have merit. and effect, it is real. - Mal: Who are other to tell you it is not? Simply because they do not experience it? - Mal: Unfortunately, humans are arrogant. Believing they know everything when their best scientific minds will be laughed at 1000 yeas from now. their concepts are proven obsolete and incorrect daily, and yet they claim they are the masters of this backwater dust ball or barren rock on the outskirts of a dieing Galaxy. - Mal: They can't even control themselves. And make the same mistakes repeatedly concerned only with selfish endeavors which benefit no one and only hurt themselves in the end. Petty squabbling over stupid religions or fears which have no founding in reality or purpose beyond sowing discord among themselves. - Mal: Humans are animals, savage, un-evolved, delusional, things not even the top of the food chain on their own planet but under the certainty that they are 100% in control of things. - Mal: That... Is Insanity - Mal: This planet is one big asylum. - Mal: Also I am speaking in general terms here, I am not accusing every single individual entity inhabiting this world as such.