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losing my faith by lioness_nikki at 7/7/2009 10:30:46 PM so I've basically been single for 2 years now. I have dated here and there, but nothing serious. I got dumped once and it really hurt...but that's not the issue. I feel like I'm losing faith. Sometimes I want to give up, to throw out all my make-up and my razor blades, build a house in the mountains somewhere and kill and cook my own meals. Sometimes it seems hopeless. I am approached either by men who I could easily eat for breakfast in a number of ways (and if you're thinking of sex right now- I'm thinking that my drive or appetites are scaring these men away.) The other men are cold and heartless, like sharks. They peruse the depths of the dating sites looking for an easy target. That is what I'm not looking for. I am not looking to allow myself to be used or to use anybody else. I just want what's real. Chemistry both mentally and physically, someone that can be my friend and partner in crime. I think this person is a unicorn or the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. I think I need to pray harder or consider a new religion.

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sunnygrl09	7/8/2009 6:43:25 AM IDK what to say, but im kinda almost there. I have been single for 12 years, except for a brief rocky relationship with someone i very much loved - committed suicide 5 years ago. Its hard to believe things will get better at some point i know, but try not to let it affect your sense of self. That being said, i wish you the best and try to take it one day at a time. And for the sake of my friend JM (and i agree with her here) will not give you any of those tired old cliches which i also hate.
theuglyoldman	7/9/2009 4:29:39 AM You are a very Lovely young Lady.Don't settle for second best. You deserve better. Problem with most guy's out there they only think of them self's and what they can get,leaveing guy's like my self haveing to work harder to prove what we are really made of. I been burnt several times and like you i feel like giveing up at times,But then i dust myself off and pray more.God will put the right one in my life in his time. Don't give up,God will do the same with you. May God Bless You in all you do
futureunknown3	7/9/2009 4:57:03 AM Your feelings mirror mine.
627gf	7/14/2009 9:59:16 PM I had many disappointments but still determined too put a end too loneliness i hung in there and found a remarkable woman that i feel in love with . It took many oysters too fine my Pearl.
ctprincess	7/15/2009 3:51:44 AM Ladies...ladies....ladies...I have been single since the mid 90's. 10 of those years I chose to dedicate myself to raising my kids. Good choice I might add. I was in an abusive marriage and needed "me" time to re-coup. I decided to get my "mommy time" when my youngest graduated from HS and that was 2 years ago.
ctprincess	7/15/2009 3:54:03 AM Since then I too had my dating issues..but I did not give up and neither should any of you. There will come the day that you will find your Prince Charming as I have already found mine. My biggest problem is that he just called me his "pearl" I am a APRIL baby and I am a "diamond" and not a "pearL" But I loved his sentiment anyway..thanks Prince Charming ....errrr....Tom
rockinrobin63	7/15/2009 6:40:53 AM Never give up no matter how cruel life can be, there is a guy out there for you, you are a beautiful woman, and he just got lost, be he will find you, keep the faith, trust me it works!!!!!!!!!!
catsmam76	7/15/2009 8:12:04 AM If you build that housr in the mountains I'd come along to keep you company,of course I don't know how to hunt and such but I'd be happy to cook and clean for you.I too often find myself sick and tired of this silly old world but it's not worth losing your faith over.
jennyann71	7/15/2009 1:17:02 PM Without Hope there is Nothing::::: so never give up :::: as a road never goes on forever without a bend or a curve and who knows Your "" Lucky Day might be tomorrow in finding a man that is right for only you and vive versa."""" Good Luck"""" and be true to thy self.
lioness_nikki	7/15/2009 8:27:01 PM Wow, guys...thanks for all the input. It really means a lot to know that others have been there before.
groovymimi	7/15/2009 11:45:25 PM ms nikki...baby, when you're ready to move to the mountains, throw away your makeup and kill your own meat...give me a shout, cause I'll go with! I can shoot, I love venison & cook one helluva deer chili & stew! And, I know how to plant, raise and cultivate my own garden! Aw hell....I'm ready NOW! LET'S GO!!! MUAH! Keep the faith, baby...when you stop searching - he'll fall in your lap.
ctprincess	7/16/2009 1:22:59 AM Nikki.....you got the best offer out there!!! Catsman is quite a catch himself and a great guy to boot!!! Maybe you two can connect?? Hmmmm....(can you tell I am on the Catsman committee to find him someone special too??) ctp
mick84404	7/16/2009 9:54:27 PM There are times that we all want to throw in the towel, believe me, But in time, it will find its way into your life when you least expect it.. Btw you dont need that make up anyways, your beautiful just being you.. take care and good luck on your quest