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Reckless Abandonment by daretobeyou at 5/28/2011 6:25:30 AM She longs to do something reckless, something to dull the ache in her heart She contemplates what? The thought of allowing strangers in her bed can't be much worse then "strangers" (former loves) that are in her head...she surmisses. Yet...she pauses. She has never allowed her body, nor her mind, to be casually touched. Every encounter, as every lover of hers...was heavily weighed and calculated to determine worth. Would he be worthy and if so...could she add value to him also? That was her way with men. But where has it taken her? Anywhere?? So she sits....in a place where love does not exist for her anymore. She longs for its return...but perhaps she's fooling herself. She's aware what the outside world says about her: "Wanted by many, loved by some, yet only cherished by a few." And so her thoughts turn back to the taboo subject of pursuing reckless encounters. Men have done it for centuries..why not she? True, she has been known as the lady with intergrity..but tonight she may settle for far less a noble title.

Comments
treblemasters	5/28/2011 6:33:00 AM sounds a bit "harlequin". But if I'm going to be reckless, it will be with someone I know!
itaiianteddy online now!	5/28/2011 6:51:01 AM Great poem my lady. Hang in there no need to compromise your faith for a few fleeing moments of bliss. Have you ever read Ester? or perhaps proverbs 31:10-31? It never to late to learn.
gentlegiant412	5/28/2011 6:55:41 AM if i was you,i wouldn't degrade myself that way.i would hold true to myself and my beliefs.you might regret it later.just sayin.
treblemasters	5/28/2011 7:00:15 AM I liked it as a poem though!
daretobeyou	5/28/2011 7:01:38 AM Thank you to all responses. Life has soo much evil in this world and it is not easy to understand why G-d allows it. Yes, Romans 8:28 explains some...but the evils of innocent children raped, struck, and murdered...well this....NO ONE can explain nor see the "positive" coming out of such stories. So... heartache need not always be about a relationship. It may just be the longing to dull your mind to the horrors seen before your very own eyes.
b_ein	5/28/2011 7:03:46 AM You never know... it only takes a few sparks to ignite the flame.
gentlegiant412	5/28/2011 7:12:21 AM your a very attractive young lady.i'm sure you have guys banging on your door and peeking in your window.i just hate to see good women waste themselves on one night stands.a good man might pass you by because of it.
prettyallpink39	5/28/2011 7:45:43 AM I share with u my favorite quote... (There can be no happiness if the things we believe in are different from the things we do.) By : Freya Stark In my words...if u go with the flow...ur not being true to urself...and not being true to urself only leads to unhappiness.
lostncountry	5/28/2011 7:48:58 AM screw u guys im going home
gentlegiant412	5/28/2011 7:50:00 AM pink..nicely said.
prettyallpink39	5/28/2011 7:51:23 AM I believe we all have bad and good within us...and God gives us free will in hopes we choose good over bad...and unfortunately...there r ppl tht choose to do the bad/evil route...so how is tht God's fault? jMo
prettyallpink39	5/28/2011 7:52:23 AM Thks gentle
gentlegiant412	5/28/2011 7:58:27 AM pink..yw.i try to choose the good side,but part of me wants to go the bad route.i don't,but i think about it,if that makes sense.
daretobeyou	5/28/2011 8:08:02 AM Pink...As in the book of Job...G-d allows certain evils to happen. To test people and their faith. To bring glory from their story and inspire/encourage others. In testing of adults...I understand the greater purpose. But to allow the testing of innocent children...oy vey...I do not comprehend.
gentlegiant412	5/28/2011 8:10:35 AM trying to understand the bible makes me
prettyallpink39	5/28/2011 8:32:28 AM Yea I feel u on tht...but unfortunately sum one has to pay for sin. My dad converted to a seventh day Adventist and he tells my...mija I'm sorry for not showing u the right way from the beginning...if I would have showed u...u would've knw the wrd...and maybe u would have done things differently in life. And I think abt it. He also told me how generation pays for other sins. And as I thought abt it makes sense...it may not be right in our eyes...but it makes sense. Like for example let's take eve...becuz she choose to sin...her punishment was carried over to us...no not fair...but it is the way it is. And unfortunately its not fair for children to suffer for a sin thy never commit...but for a family member sinful life. jMo
gentlegiant412	5/28/2011 8:35:51 AM strange huh?
macdadyrev101	5/28/2011 8:36:02 AM
gentlegiant412	5/28/2011 8:36:51 AM mac
shadowsknight	5/28/2011 8:45:22 AM Lise really isnt a test, unless you test yourself. The only way to understand, heavenly, and sinfull actions, is to live them. Either way you go, there will be worthy actions, the individual picks where they will go, by the way they have lived,jmo!
prettyallpink39	5/28/2011 8:48:24 AM God took my first born whn she was 1 1/2...why would he give me her and shortly take her from sum thing I will never knw...and it took me a long time...to get to the place...where I am able to see I was blessed with the little time tht I did have her in my life...she was my little angel.
prettyallpink39	5/28/2011 8:52:01 AM @ gentle yes it does make sense...cuz its easier to do bad...but being thts not who u really r...is why u choose differently @ shadow oh wow very good point!!!
vermont34	5/28/2011 10:49:33 AM Are you a yahud?Meanning jew?Because most jews call god g-d.
yojay3	5/29/2011 6:02:45 PM I read your post. You seam like a nice lady that has had some bad luck. I know how you feel believe me. There are still lots of nice Guy's out there still don't compromise. Find. You a man that is sweet and caring. Please see my profile. Lol.