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God Dammit by longjohn09 at 1/1/2011 2:06:31 AM Every f**king time I ask god for the smallest of things he just pisses me away and says f**k off een when I was a kid a lot of shit happened that I don't want to talk about and I prayed everyday for four years to make it stop and for it to all be a dream but he just f**ked up my childhood like he has f**ked up my life so far. The only good thing I had in my life that was worth living for died over four years ago and now my life scence then has went straight down scence that day and I have honestly lost all my dam faith in "god" everyone running around twellling me "you need to be saved god will save you" that is a load of shit if you ask me I think I'm just f**king fine the way I am. And don't put in the comments how "Ooh god will save you just believe" cuz that is total shit now that that is off my chest does anyone feel the same way? Like you have been f**ked over your entire life and your a real nice guy and you care about women and they just see you as a friend that they can rely on and shit? Cuz I'm f**king tired of all these women in my life either being a** holes leading me on or just being b*tches and saying Ooh I live you but I don't love you and man that really hits me right in the heart not to sound like a emo f*ggot but really this entire new year is going to suck balls.

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rocco_us online now!	1/1/2011 3:56:44 AM "Ooh god will save you just believe"
djd60	1/1/2011 4:20:03 AM Well SHEEESH!! I Hope Your Hungover Too!!
1becomes2	1/1/2011 4:32:55 AM My belief...God didn't make your life suck...you did. Maybe you've been praying for the wrong things and his answer is "no." Everything in life happens for a reason and someday the reason will be revealed to you. JMO...we've been put on this earth to experience life for God and to perfect our souls. That can't happen if you're damning Him and always thinking negative. Live your life in a positive way and you'll be surprised at what will happen. God bless!
harrybyvick	1/1/2011 4:53:14 AM Can I take it your not a happy camper today
katie1736	1/1/2011 5:34:21 AM Welcome 2011...life could be worse...take 2 asprin; get some sleep and call on him when you find something to be thankful for.
shoprat69	1/1/2011 10:14:10 AM happy newyear
livlif3	1/1/2011 12:56:45 PM Life is about choices, even your life alone is here because of a choice ..... suck it up & keep walking foward.
winstonian	1/1/2011 7:57:59 PM Hey,start going to a few church masses & you'll se the diffrence.I had no confince in myself getting better through all the sickness that I went through.For now I'm doing better & have build relationships with people from my church & get some reference in case I need a job & stuff.Pray a liittle bit & relax.
longjohn09	1/2/2011 5:42:48 PM @livlif3 you don't understand I have been through a lot of crap in my life like hmm lets see I saw my sister get shot in the head with a .357 and what else my father getting his throat cut in his sleep and I have been kidnapped quit a few times because I was related to the wrong family now what part am I supposed to suck it and keep walking about? If you ask me I think most reasonable people would agree that there would be a reason to be a little pissed off an needs to blow off steam because of all the crap I have been through. Do you understand? Or are you just going to tell me to forget that the two people I had left in my life were murdered in front of me to just forget about that is well... PRETTY F**KING HARD!!!
jordyrose	1/2/2011 10:47:13 PM look, i don't appreciate you saying all those things about God or women, i love you but idk, you and i have a lot of things we dont agree on, and believe it or not like you, i have had a lot of bad stuff happen to me to in my lifetime, and i used to be like you thinking God hated me and all that, but its not true, and no im not gonna tell you to believe in him and you will be fine, you have to want it and work at it and pray for your life to change, im not gonna preach to you anymore though, all i can say is i know it works, because it worked for me and a lot of other people who i love and others, my life used to suck and even though i have struggles now, now that i have God, i feel like no matter what i will be ok, and i know you probably hate that me, im saying that, but its the truth, one year i wanted to kill myself, then i found God and i wanted to live, and i know you think all christians are judgmental, but your wrong, all of us once were bad people, or doing bad things, but now since we have the love of God, things are better, im sorry again for preaching to you, but if i didnt say anything i would hate myself forever, i love you and thats the only reason i said anything to you, i hope you can forgive me, but its just who i am, i dont judge you so i hope you wont judge me either. this is my favorite verse, you dont have to read it but it helps me, Isaiah 41:10-13. i love you<333
brejustme online now!	1/10/2011 3:36:08 PM Well f**k everyone elses comments. I completely agree with u. Im not a god fearing person either. He has takin alot away from me in my life. Even after being beat for 8 years and spending a massive amount of time in a coma while my childs dad kidnapd her and took us months to find her. I had a lil boy born in nov. Of 2007 who died 5 days after birth from a rare disease that made him the 12th baby in the entire world born with it. They say god doesnt put more on u than u can bare. But thats a crock of f**kin shit. I sold my soul to the devil years ago and starting to get my sanity back slowly. So f**k all u who say just go to church. Why so we can be judged and critized for trying to be who we want to be. So dude I stand with u 100%. Gods not worth my time either