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| mcrider50 |
Last Online: 11/10/2007 2:40:02 PM |
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| Location: |
Pine City, Minnesota |
| Zip Code: |
55063 |
| Age: |
50, Leo |
| Height: |
5 ft. 8 in. |
| Hair, Eyes: |
Dark Brown, Hazel |
| Body Type: |
Muscular |
| Ethnicity: |
White |
| Religion: |
Buddhist |
| Politics: |
Liberal |
| Education: |
High School |
| Income: |
Didn't Say |
| Job: |
Engineering |
| Drink: |
Drink Regularly |
| Smoke: |
Smoke Regularly |
| Status: |
Single |
| Have Kids: |
Yes, not living with me |
| Want More: |
Didn't Say |
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| Personality |
I am a person who kinda just recently woke up and realized that I've had little contentment in my life for many, many years. I'm an addict. It started innocently enough, and was even respected and encouraged. It started with learning / gaining knowledge and quickly proceeded to a burning desire to create. I spent 20 years studying statistics, database development, Lean Manufacturing, and manufacturing in general. And I was well respected and ended up being quite successful. Of course I worked 16 hr days, many times for weeks on end over all these years and along the way had 3 children. They are wonderful, but two are mentally and physically disabled. My daughter had to have a part of her brain removed and my son has had at least 50 surgeries with a dozen of these very major and life threatening. Sometime after my daughter was born, I began to self-medicate - either with work or with alcohol / drugs. I am ashamed to admit that I have never overcome the terror, pain and guilt a parent feels when they watch their baby suffer for years on end.
So, now I have converted to Budhism and am attempting to learn to learn the path of enlightenment. Until recently most people who knew me would have told you I was a rock - the fact is I live in weakness and can only hope to at some point become the man I wish to become.
Well - this profile should generate a lot of responses! Doesn't matter. I'm not using this site to get laid, hitched or to find my soul mate. I'm here for me - using it as a means of listening to others, trying to learn and to try to start to see reality as it is. Something the Budda tells us, few are capable of. I am just beginning to get little glimpses of my ignorance, who knows, what the future will bring? I will welcome any e-mails - blast my blogs and comments if you choose, tell me your reality, and of course pretty gals are encouraged to flirt a bit (would be first, but stranger things have happened in life).
Also, if you get me going, I can be pretty hilarious in a dry way. Sometimes I really tickle myself, but try not to do it in public anymore, since the incarceration (kidding).
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| Personality Type: |
Strong Silent Type |
| Want To Find: |
A woman ages 29 to 40 to date |
| I Party: |
Didn't Say |
Interests:
I Like: |
Fishing, Foreign Films, Hugging, Kissing, Motorcycling, Philosophy, playing guitar, Reading, Reality, singing in private., the Brain |
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Personals I've viewed:
kimber1558, miscy13, razz40, shany, tto, tcu69, vikingvixen
Singles/People who have viewed me:
renee15, kimber1558, barbiedolldream, sweetone2077, midnightgypsy, dlpince, goldmustang
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