Was up a few nights ago and saw a silly Jerry Springer show.... "Whats your Baggage?" (or something like that).

I mean we are all here and have some kind Of baggage. Just wondering who knows their own self....and can admit it?

In other words this place is as dead as late night TV!

I am finding this post totally ironic this morning... I have tons of baggage it seems and it has cost me not only relationships but friendships too. My baggage is so heavy that it has even caused me to change physically from the stress and heartache and not dealing with it well. But I DO know it. Am completely honest about it. Willing to admit it... Ironic part about all this is yesterday I decided it was time to do something about it and in feeling like shouting at the world I actually even changed my profile to be honest about my baggage from the start. Not likely to be getting any more dates any time soon. But suppose that is okay too.

I read your profile where your coming from. I really admire you for putting all out there! most people don't have the courage that you have!

Good idea... I'm going fishing.

'possible' walking amonia (sp?) or broncitis. Gotta rest n go back Monday for xrays and more blood work if not feeling better.

Hmmmmmm... need some movies?

I do not have a magic bank account nor a sugar daddy nor a trust fund... I do work and live paycheck to paycheck. But I really am feeling quite misserable so thinking at least for today I will take the advice and get some extra rest.

But in the end it will be okay. My house is going on the market soon so as I can hopefully, finally be able to have a little more then living paycheck to paycheck.

My baby also graduates highschool here in a few weeks. He will be able to then work full time and carry his own medical insurance, this too will
lift a huge financial burdon being as
he is type 1 diabetic.

So at this point in life, one day off might actually be more good then harm...
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Hey Top!! Hows it going? Sorry I was so off topic on your thread... lol... :-"

Feel a little silly about it now, but also greatful for the kind words of encouragement, so thanks for letting me stay.

On topic... Me and my baggage have had a nice break. I feel more at peace with the current state of life and see the light at the end of the tunnel. I havent found work out of state and about to sign a year lease on a place in Ogden. My son decided to stay here to finish his associates degree, since all 8 of the college credits he is graduating high school with are from Weber Tech. So I have at least a year to figure things out now, without the stress of the big house and barn and drain on the budget, with the mortage I can no longer afford because of lay offs over the last two years. Letting baggage go feels so amazing!!

And way, enjoy the day!!


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NP! You hit the nail on the head. Just trying to get people to see themselves for who and what they are to the outside world.

We now have two of your issues out in the open. Here is one of mine....

I have been used by women throughout my life that there has been some armor installed. It can be penetrated. The right person, place and time. It can happen. But not over night! Kind of grouchy, on the exterior. I am here solely for being an eternal optimistic pessimist. Waiting for the cat to walk across their keyboard at the right moment and send a message to me from the right person, just aint working none to well!

Too many "right"s there. I need a map for the correct turns here and there.