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Three Years
by lovethelake17 at 7/13/2012 2:34:11 PM
Today it is three years.
Three years since I saw your face.
Three years since I heard your voice--though that's not entirely true. It's been longer. It happened three months prior.
Three years since I held your hand.
Three years since I kissed your lips.
It's been three long years.
It's been three short years.
It's been three hard years.
I miss you. I wonder where we'd be now if you were still here. Would you be accomplishing what you so excitedly set out to do when we first came here? Would I be happily working and carting our daughter off to different practices? Would we be in the house we found just before you fell ill? Would we be planning our 10 year anniversary trip?
I drive around and I see the housing you would have improved and I feel sorry for Vegas that you didn't get the chance to do what you wanted.
I bring our daughter to things and I miss you being there, too. I miss telling you about the things you missed. I miss catching your eye over her head and smiling indulgently.
I miss you coming home for dinner, and we spend the evening, the three of us together, doing all that mundane, homey stuff. I miss us wandering on weekends and finding new places.
I wanted more annivesaries with you, my love. We didn't get nearly enough.
These three years have been so long. It seems like a lifetime ago that we were together. And yet, these three years have been so short and it seems like yesterday I said goodbye.
While it's been three hard years, being without you, I've taken the lessons you've taught me about love and understanding and compassion and companionship and moved forward in life. I can only hope that my doing so honors you and pleases you.
I have so much to thank you for, Lyn, and I wish that I would have told you so when you could still hear me. I am grateful you came into my life. I am grateful for the time we had, however short it was. I am grateful for your love. I will hold it close and cherish it forever.
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